life as a soldier

I'm sitting in the trench and all i can hear is gun shots.there are people coming in with blown off arms and legs.People are not making it out of the trenches. I'm really scared!!! I'm not to sure what will happen if  I will die or go home.I made it out of the trench with guns trying to shoot at me.I get down and start to crawl on the ground. There are gun shots hitting the dirt and BANG man down.I'm shooting all these people.I think I have shot 20 people. I feel pretty sad.